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deafness, Elizabeth Kubler-Ross, Inspiration, posit science, spiritual healing, tinnitus, world of silence
“Learn to get in touch with the silence within yourself, and know that everything in life has purpose. There are no mistakes, no coincidences, all events are blessings given to us to learn from.” Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
As a few of my WordPress followers know I have a Facebook fan page “Love Is The Answer” where I post daily quotes that are uplifting or that makes one stop and reconsider how we perceive life. I breathe and live what I write about spirituality. Some one shared the above quote on Facebook, and it was in perfect timing for a tremendous challenge I experienced four days ago.
I was with my life partner Phil in the van on our way to drop off orders from our customers at the post office, and before I knew it, my ears were ringing, and most of my hearing suddenly left me. I was plunged into a world where I saw movement, people talking, children laughing, cars driving past us but all without a sound. It was to me a distressing reality.
Your inspirational writer Marie had two days where there were moments of inconsolable crying and fear. And I tell you, I am strong, but not this time. I had been working with a great science program to improve my hearing from Posit Science which I discovered when Nancy http://nrhatch.wordpress.com/ shared information about a book “The Brain That Changes Itself” that writes of mind boggling healing taking place in patients by rewiring the brain through mental exercises. In the book, they mentioned a software program to improve hearing, so I purchased it early this year. I saw incredible improvements to then suddenly experience this reversal. It caught me by surprise, as my physical health is a good one.
However, after two days of sadness and fear, and not talking much about it, Phil and I had a profound spiritual conversation (I lip read), and I regained my inner stillness and decided to move on. I went out by myself the next day and did routine tasks to have normalcy back in my life. On the day I went out, I noticed that many people were drawn to me and smiling at me. Children would wave at me as well as the elderly. When I got home, I realized that this pleasant connection with strangers made my venture out easier. In the seven years, I have lived in Oregon; I had not experienced this Southern-like charm.
By being centered, I can then do what I need to do. Seeing a doctor is not worthwhile as I experienced the same drop 24 years ago, but since I had better hearing then, I did not experience total deafness. There is nothing the medical establishment can do. By being centered, I give my mind and body the possibility of healing.
And it has started to pay off…. I used healing energy techniques, purchased Homeopathic remedies for tinnitus (ringing in the ear) and Bach Rescue Remedy for trauma. Yesterday after taking a nap, I woke up with some hearing back! The damage this time is not permanent. Now I can hear my voice, Phil’s and a few sounds we take for granted. I am not out of the woods yet as I still hear less than last week, but at least I am not in the Twilight Zone where the world suddenly has lost sound.
The lesson I am learning from this is I need to make further spring cleaning type of changes. Life is a constant letting go, not only of physical things, relationships and so on, but a letting go of internal dynamics that no longer work for our well-being and spiritual evolution. I am also reminded to never lose hope that out of this challenge something good will result.
I am blessed that I do experience a peaceful and loving life, and have made many, many changes in the past few years but the work is not done yet, and I am up to the task.
Love is The Answer 
Maria what a great read. And what an ordeal you have been going through. But you are right to carve out your own path to healing. And being centered is certainly at the core of it. My thoughts and blessings of good will are with you.
Thank you Walter for the encouragement and blessings, very much appreciated!
I like the good work your doing, being in 3rd world I see the inspiration in you friend, I understand myself and my life in general, the purpose of mr being here
Thanks a million times friend
Joseph, Thank you so much for your comments, I truly felt your message. Blessings to you my friend.
Receive healing in Jesus name, receive it! Amen
Thank you, Joseph. Amen!
Ooh Marie, am so sorry to hear about the difficult time you have been going through lately. I can’t imagine how scary it can be not to hear sound. I am glad you are much better now. And it’s so cool that you can lip read. Where did you learn that? I would love to learn how to do that.
I loved the amazing transformation you went through after finding your center. You are right, the most pure peace and joy. Can only come from within. The quote you shared is so comforting…
P.S Your new banner is beautiful
When I was a young teenager I was sent to lip reading classes and the teacher told me after the second class that I did not need the classes as I could lip read very well. Seems, nature compensated and I learned to lip read on my own without being aware I was doing this . You can learn by turning the TV’s sound off and watching the movement of lips. It’s actually cool, you can even “hear” accents as depending on culture the lips form words differently.
Yes, I am trying to stay centered. I have moments of fear, but the peace can only come from deep within and thank God we have to tap into. Thanks for liking the banner, want new energy. 🙂
I am going to teach myself using the tele. That’s a beautiful gift you have my friend 🙂
Bless your heart and soul (and ears!). Thanks, Marie, for sharing this heart-rending story, which may begin as heart-rending, but in the end, will be soul-freeing. You are a blessing to so many!
Janet, Your words made my eyes wet, like Veeh, I am a crybaby. LOL The soul freeing comment totally hit a nerve as I see that happening out of this. What joy that would be.
Marie! I don’t know what to say except that I’m profoundly touched by what you’ve shared. I didn’t know of your previous hearing loss, and so that in itself is new information. But thank you for sharing your fears and concerns and overall temporary “falling down” with this very startling recent loss! You are such a teacher in how you share your personal journey, and how you pick up and move forward. I send my prayers for peace and restoration. I hope you’ll continue to share not only how you are impacted, but what you continue to observe in how you in turn impact others. You are a really a strong inspiration. Loss is so on-going in our lives. And it’s what we do with those “silences” that aren’t always connected to our external hearing! Blessings, Debra
Debra, My thoughts were that I generally like to share things that are uplifting that encourage positivity, but to be authentic, I also felt compelled to share my moment of falling down. The beauty of it all is we can choose draw strength from within and not stay in emotionally dysfunctional state. I will share more down the road, and hope that in my sharing it will be good news. Thanks for your prayers of peace and restoration.
Veeh, Cool! Any questions or comments feel free to ask me. 🙂
I am glad that your hearing is rebounding . . . and that you used the silence to connect with passers-by in smiles and waves.
I wonder if the healing required a “re-setting” of sorts? If so, you may see more improvement in the days ahead.
Either way, be well. Thanks for sharing. 😀
Nancy, My mate Phil said something similar, that sometimes for healing to take place we get “worse”, so thank you for this reminder! I am getting all sorts of positive confirmations today. Thank you for this. 🙂
Marie: See my blog entry “Who Are We?” It has something to do with you, right now, I think. Without our senses, or in your case your hearing, we’re stripped of distractions from our true self, our is-ness. Perhaps this journey will allow you to find that path to even further depth into that which is connected to all. I will be interested to know how things are going for you, as the days and weeks go by. As a nurse, I know that when a person is deprived of a sense, other senses become sharper, clearer, more adept. And because I think our five senses are only scratching the surface of our sensory abilities, I’ll be fascinated to hear what develops with you, as a result of this “loss”. It may end up being an unexpected, glorious gain! Much love, Janet. 🙂
Janet, I have had a hearing disability from the age of 13 but it has grown progressively worse, and the sense I developed is my 6th sense. I don’t have super vision or a super sense of smell, but intuitively, I pick up things with accuracy. I wrote in my book of how the hearing challenge put in the spiritual path. Will be checking your blog out, couldn’t find it earlier though. Thanks for your caring and your thoughts. Much love to you.
Maria, I have absolutely no words except to say that your bravery touches me. May the universe rain down blessings on you in all that you do.
Jim, Your words touched me. I know they come from your heart, and it’s very much appreciated. Have to catch up with your blog, haven’t forgetten you. 😉
Oh Marie, I’ve been way behind in reading blogs…I hadn’t seen your post until this moment…oh my goodness, Marie…my heart and my loving, nurturing, encouraging and supportive wishes go out to you….thank goodness you were able to re-center a bit and that there is a bit of hearing re-emerging.
I think the response of people you saw as you were out and how they were drawn to you shows that no matter what your hearing level, you have an enormous gift of “listening” and bringing light and music to the hearts of others. Do you remember that post I had about “please listen to me with your eyes”…and you had responded to that idea….you have a gift of listening no matter what sense you are using. And please, please, please, keep bringing that wonderful and sustaining light and music into your own heart too. You are such an inspiration that I hold dearly in my own heart. (and your book is right here under the monitor) I saw that you looked at the card “warmth, love and appreciation”… the words, love and kindness on that card sustained me during some very difficult times…I hope it might help you a bit…maybe you could print it out and know that my own warmth, love and appreciation are with you when you read it?..I know Jampa sends those wishes along to you too.
Kathy, I so appreciate your kindness, love and encouragement. I will do as you suggested to keep the music in my heart and pay it forward. Thank you for this! I have to go back and check your entries and will print the “warmth, love and appreciation” card and keep it near my computer.
The universe is perfect. Your comments are in perfect timing as I just got a response today from a well meaning friend in another writer’s site that told me that my warm and fuzzy stuff will not work, (he is not into the spiritual aspects of things) and that I needed to work directly with my subconscious mind and such, and offered to help me. I responded that what I am doing is not warm and fuzzy stuff, LOL, that it has given me courage, has helped recuperate some hearing and I am working on my mind, body and spirit and politely declined his offer of help. He has a huge heart though. I think I am going to unpublish my article there as it may not be right community to write about spiritual matters. 😉
I am working with the Healing Codes, which a friend introduced me to. And Kathy, today, I truly woke up with lightness, even was singing and since I can’t really hear myself, I imagine it sounds “beautiful”, LOL. Point being I had a sudden clarity this morning that I needed to see life with a different lens… The thought just popped up into my mind and a lightness ensued even with this silence. We both know how important perception about life and the experiences is, but it’s one thing reading and writing about it and having a literal “lens” shift…. With this “lens” shift, I can continue doing what I need to do but without the heaviness of resistance, sadness and fear which was still showing up now and then. I see a world of possibilities.
I am not missing the synchronicity of your message about the eyes and my experience this morning… Wonderful!
Hi Marie….here you go…supporting synchronicity….. : ) http://pocketperspectives.wordpress.com/2012/01/10/please-show-me-youre-listening-with-your-eyes/ and warmth love and appreciation http://reflectionsfromafriend.wordpress.com/2012/02/14/214-with-warmth-love-and-appreciation/
And a lens shift…a wonderful way of expressing that….continuing blessings to you…kathy
Thank you Kathy, you made it easier for me to read again and print as I was going to search for the post later tonight. Thank YOU for your kindness!
I have nominated you for the 7×7 blog award…I hope you can accept…the link is below…Peace to you
http://myraysoflight.wordpress.com/2012/04/08/7×7-award/
Thank you so much for the nomination! Many blessings to you. 🙂
To you as well
I very much empathize with your fear from the suddeness and unexpected onslaught of tinnitis and silence. What I relate it to was an episode I had where I experienced a sudden semi-blindness with lightening flashes going through my eyes and my face became half paralyzed. There was pain in my head. I was soooooooo scared. I even thought it might be my time to cross over.
It turned out to be a migrain and Belle’s Palsy caused by an allergic reaction to some medication I had been taking for a couple of days. (Most of my reactions happen 2-3 days into taking a medication.)
I understand your fear and I am sorry you are/have been going through this episode. Is there a possibility you could have been experiencing a reaction to something — maybe even stress? I get tinnitis at various times. My healing thoughts are with you.
Jill
Jill, So wonderful to see you here! It’s very traumatic to loose a sense. Wow, that had to very hard to not being able to see but glad it was temporary! Even if I was already hearing impaired, I could hear but not so much anymore. I have good days and not good ones emotionally. I am working with self-healing to deal with the emotional impact as I do not want to get into depression and compound the issue. I have a blessed life in other areas and will find some good out of this. Will most likely look for a spiritual mentor. I think Jill, I have too much internal fear and this caused the hearing loss. I am doing inner work to address this, as I did get back a little hearing as mentioned in my post.
Hi Marie , Ahorseback here ! I have always known one thing about you , I envy the inner spirit , the strength and the centered approach you seem to give all. You are such an amazing person and deserve every blessing that friends can be given , Our hearts are with you ,thank you for sharing the best part …………YOU ! your friend Ed …….:-}
Hi Ed, What a pleasant surprise you paid me a visit here! Do keep coming back. 🙂 Thank you for your kind words and support. The kindness of everyone helped me tremendously. We are all connected!