I wrote this poem many years ago, when matters of the heart and plans gone awry where my spiritual and emotional challenges. This poem was included in the United Nations’ collection of poetry for peace. Nowadays life is sweeter because of the lessons of yesterday.
When life casts its gray shadows on me
and the tests seem too much to take.
When my heart has been broken once again –
and my dreams have faded into nothingness,
the white sands of the beach is where I go.
Running past sand castles with the
hidden treasures I may never know –
running past lovers basking in the warmth
of the eternal sun,
I reach for the cool embrace of the ocean’s waves.
Together we dance to the ebb and flow
of the tide of life,
and together we stand unafraid.
In the silence of the distance
the ocean’s strength speaks to me-
enveloping my soul with the
gift of peace it came to find.
“Learn to get in touch with the silence within yourself, and know that everything in life has purpose. There are no mistakes, no coincidences, all events are blessings given to us to learn from.” Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
As a few of my WordPress followers know I have a Facebook fan page “Love Is The Answer” where I post daily quotes that are uplifting or that makes one stop and reconsider how we perceive life. I breathe and live what I write about spirituality. Some one shared the above quote on Facebook, and it was in perfect timing for a tremendous challenge I experienced four days ago.
I was with my life partner Phil in the van on our way to drop off orders from our customers at the post office, and before I knew it, my ears were ringing, and most of my hearing suddenly left me. I was plunged into a world where I saw movement, people talking, children laughing, cars driving past us but all without a sound. It was to me a distressing reality.
Your inspirational writer Marie had two days where there were moments of inconsolable crying and fear. And I tell you, I am strong, but not this time. I had been working with a great science program to improve my hearing from Posit Science which I discovered when Nancy http://nrhatch.wordpress.com/ shared information about a book “The Brain That Changes Itself” that writes of mind boggling healing taking place in patients by rewiring the brain through mental exercises. In the book, they mentioned a software program to improve hearing, so I purchased it early this year. I saw incredible improvements to then suddenly experience this reversal. It caught me by surprise, as my physical health is a good one.
However, after two days of sadness and fear, and not talking much about it, Phil and I had a profound spiritual conversation (I lip read), and I regained my inner stillness and decided to move on. I went out by myself the next day and did routine tasks to have normalcy back in my life. On the day I went out, I noticed that many people were drawn to me and smiling at me. Children would wave at me as well as the elderly. When I got home, I realized that this pleasant connection with strangers made my venture out easier. In the seven years, I have lived in Oregon; I had not experienced this Southern-like charm.
By being centered, I can then do what I need to do. Seeing a doctor is not worthwhile as I experienced the same drop 24 years ago, but since I had better hearing then, I did not experience total deafness. There is nothing the medical establishment can do. By being centered, I give my mind and body the possibility of healing.
And it has started to pay off…. I used healing energy techniques, purchased Homeopathic remedies for tinnitus (ringing in the ear) and Bach Rescue Remedy for trauma. Yesterday after taking a nap, I woke up with some hearing back! The damage this time is not permanent. Now I can hear my voice, Phil’s and a few sounds we take for granted. I am not out of the woods yet as I still hear less than last week, but at least I am not in the Twilight Zone where the world suddenly has lost sound.
The lesson I am learning from this is I need to make further spring cleaning type of changes. Life is a constant letting go, not only of physical things, relationships and so on, but a letting go of internal dynamics that no longer work for our well-being and spiritual evolution. I am also reminded to never lose hope that out of this challenge something good will result.
I am blessed that I do experience a peaceful and loving life, and have made many, many changes in the past few years but the work is not done yet, and I am up to the task.
I found that when I resisted life – my intuition and clarity became obscured and I made errors in judgment. I also seemed to attract more negativity into my space. But, when I learned new moves with the dance of life and had the understanding that there are certain things in life we cannot control, that the tapestry of life is infinite, that the dual nature of life brings us joy and sorrow, dark and light – a quiet surrender took place and the light of clarity shined on the darker corners of my life.
Surrender does not mean giving up, not doing anything about what we wish to change; it means surrendering our internal conflict; from this place of stillness, we either take action in the outward world, or continue to look within and work on releasing internally that which is blocking us.
Embracing all of life and learning to flow with it, has given me a sweeter dance with life. May your dance also be sweet.
Mastering others is strength; mastering yourself is true power.
If you realize that you have enough, you are truly rich. —Tao Te Ching